Tuesday, June 10, 2008

OUR WORST FEAR!

Well our worst fear was confirmed today. The Dr. office called to confirm the pregnancy did not work. I am finally calm enough to sit and let you all know. I am surprisingly doing okay. I still feel so much peace and know that the Lord is aware of what we are going through. It is hard to understand sometimes why things don't go the way we want or hope they would.....but I struggled for years to know what my purpose was and if I could not have children why was I here. I knew what my purpose was the second I held sweet little Cade and then again when we got our Jakie. I was meant to be here for them and I finally knew what my purpose was. Don't get me wrong this is so devastating for us but I have learned not to doubt the Lords plan for me. The road to have a family has not been easy for us but it has brought amazing blessings into our lives. All the hope and peace we have felt is real and I know that if we stay strong the Lord will bless us with more children. Thanks to all of you for your love, prayers and everything else you have done to help us believe. I still believe and refuse to give up! I love you all and I am grateful for each one of you and the blessing you are in our lives. To my sweet mom and dad who are gone I love you more than words can say. I am okay because you have taught not to ever give up and to always have hope and faith in the Lord and my savior. For that I am so grateful. You are always telling me how strong I am and it is because of the two of you! And to Carla and Merrill thanks for raising such a good man with so much faith, love, and compasion. I couldn't ask for a better husband. Thanks also for your love and prayers and helping us through this. At times like this we have to remember our blessings and just like Jon's blessing last night said "never give up hope". Sorry for such sad news......but thank you again for all you have done.

Lots of Love,

Jon and Kim

19 comments:

Anonymous said...

Kim & Jon,
We love you guys so much, I'm so sorry. I love your line (never give up hope)The lord truly works in ways we never imagine. He will always be there for us though. Thanks for letting us all be a part of your Family. We are all still cheering for you. Love you tonz!!! The Jeppsons

Dan and Stacy said...

I am so sorry for the hurt you are feeling right now. The Lord has a purpose in all things and sometimes we wish we could just know NOW. We love you guys and are here for you. Please let us know if we can do anything.

Dan

Shannon said...

We are so sorry. We know what it feels like to go through these struggles. We agree Heavenly Father has a plan for you and later on down the road, you will know why you had to go through these times. Let us know if there is anything we can do.

Amy and Kody said...

We are so sorry. Stay strong in your faith, the lord has a special plan for you, I am sure this is very difficult for you guy's and it is difficult to watch you go through pain, you and Jon are two of the sweetest most down to earth people I know. Please let us know if ther is anything we can do for you. Stay strong and we love you.

Jaime said...

Kim I saw your blog from Roxey so I hope you don't mind that I am checking it out. I am so sorry! I know about having those moments of WHY? But then their is always something that helps us to remember why! and why it is how it should be. I hope other then this hard moment, you have lots of better ones. Hope everything else is good! Your boys are adorable!

Dan and Stacy said...

Wow Kim you are much stronger than I. I love your post and I can certainly feel your strong testimony shining through. This really and truly just sucks!!!!! There is nothing more I can say except that we love your family so much and are hurting with you. Lots of love and prayers are still floating your way.

Summerhunt said...

Kim and Jon
I am so sorry. I cannot understand the hurt that you must be feeling at this time. But I want you to know that you are in our prayers and we are thinking of you. Please let me know what i can do to make things easier for you. I love you so much thanks you for your faith, strenght and courage. You are an example to us all.
Love Summer

Josh and Emily said...

Jon and Kim, We love you so much. My heart hurts for you right now. You are one of my heros I have told you that before, but this just confirms it more. You have amazing strength and are always working to lift others up. You two are the most wonderful couple and people. We will continue sending our prayers your way.

Anonymous said...

What an amazing example your family is for us! Wow. Thank you for sharing your faith and hope. It is awesome to know that there is a different plan for each of us and to know what a blessing you are for Cade and Jake. We love you guys and are so sorry about the news.

Roxey said...

You are amazing. I am so proud of you and what a strong mother, wife, and woman you are. You are truly an inspiration to me, and I'm so grateful we are able to reconnect. I want to share one of my favorite thoughts from President Hinkley and Helen Keller that remind me of you: "We know not all that lies ahead of us. We live in a world of uncertainty. For some, there will be great accomplishment. For others, disappointment. For some, much rejoicing and gladness, good health, and gracious living. For others, perhaps sickness and a measure of sorrow. We do not know. But one thing we do know. Like the Polar Star in the heavens, regardless of what the future holds, there stands the Redeemer of the world, the Son of God, certain and sure as the anchor of our immortal lives. He is the rock of our salvation, our strength, our comfort, the very focus of our faith.
In sunshine and in shadow we look to Him, and He is there to assure and smile upon us.
None so great has ever walked the earth. None other has made a comparable sacrifice or granted a comparable blessing. He is the Savior and Redeemer of the world. I believe in Him. I declare His divinity without equivocation or compromise. I love Him."

"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of overcoming it."

"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experiences of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired and success achieved."

"Faith is the strength by which a shattered world shall emerge into the light."

"It is for us to pray not for tasks equal to our powers, but for powers equal to our tasks, to go forward with a great desire forever beating at the door of our hearts as we travel toward our distant goal."

"Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence."

"The marvelous richness of human experience would lose something of rewarding joy if there were no limitations to overcome. The hilltop hour would not be half so wonderful if there were no dark valleys to traverse."

I love you Kim

It's That Simple said...

We are so sorry. We can definitely empathize with your struggles and frustrations.....and your blessings of little ones brought to you in special ways! We are thinking of you. The Lawrences

Jana Banana said...

I think I have read this post at least a dozen times with tears down my cheeks---all I can say is that I love you guys with my whole heart. Your strength and testimony are so inspiring. You have touched so many and are great examples to all of us. I know you guys will never give up- and you will be blessed for it. Thank you for sharing your testimony and for your sweet words. We love you more than words can say.....
Love, Ike and Jana

VB Family said...

Hey Layton Family!

We bet today has been a crazy day. Sorry about the news. If there is a family that can handle this crazy rollercoaster ride, it is you all. Keep being so strong -although a tear here and there doesn't hurt. Your family is such a great example of sacrifice, perseverence, and righteousness. Keep plugging away. The sun is shinning somewhere. Love you guys!

The VB Family!

Unknown said...

I am so sorry. I have been thinking about you. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.

Missy said...

Kim and John,
It's hard to understand why heartache is a part of life. But, it is okay to do just that and let your heart ache. You are so amazing and are such a good mom to your precious boys. The Lord loves you and is so mindful of you at this time. Remember, He will never tempt or try you above that which you are able. He trusts you with this trial and knows that you will only become stronger and closer to Him.
You are the best!

Rebecca said...

Hugs, Hugs, Hugs, and then some more hugs.
I think that sums it all up.
Sure do love you guys!
Rebecca, Dan, Ike and Porter

Our Lifes Treasures said...

kim I've been thinking about you guy's all day long. I can't even express how sorry I am for you and Jon at this time. It amazes me how strong you are. I love you.

Jen D said...

We love you guys!
we love your positive, christlike attitudes. Thanks for being such great examples as parents and as friends.
Jimmy V quote "Don't give up, don't ever give up!"
Chad and Jen

Nancy said...

Jon and Kim, we are so sorry.
Luke told me that it didn't work andI had to rush to the blog... (I haven't looked it up for ever!) we are praying for you... Better late then never I guess!!
Love you guys!
The Watkins