LIA'S DR. APT.

We got to see our sweet little Lia for the first time yesterday. It was so neat to see her and hear her heart beat, it made it feel even more real. The Birth Mother had to do a test for gestational diabetes and it and came back normal, which was great news. They are still concerned about her delivering early but she is now in the "safe zone" at 30 weeks. We were relieved to see first had that everything is okay and that she is doing good. They are hoping to get her to 37 weeks and then they will deliver the baby C-section. So at most we have 7 weeks until our little miracle is here. Is that just CRAZY!!! Two weeks ago there was not a spec of pink in our home and now that is all you see. I am trying to control myself cause I have two showers that my friends and family are giving me. It is so nice of them cause we have a LOT to buy. It is like starting all over again and it is so much fun. Jon and I feel so good about everything and have complete confidence the Birth Mom will place. She brought me a gift to the apt. yesterday. She gave me two little dresses and a pair of the cutest flip flops you have ever seen! She also gave us a sweet card expressing her gratitude for us and giving this baby girl a good home. She is heaven sent and we just love her. She is in a hard situation and has three children under 4. She knows that she can't give her baby the life she deserves and loves her enough to give her more. It is truely the most courageous, unselfish thing a person could do. She is on full bed rest until the baby is born which I'm sure is so hard with three small children. She is amazing and we just pray the Lord will watch over them. We will be going to her apt. with her in two weeks, so I will update you on her progress. In the main time keep her in your prayers!!!

THE FULL STORY......

So I just wanted to share the full story of what has happened. 2 1/2 weeks ago we got a phone call from our case worker asking us if we were okay to be shown to a birth mother who was in the hospital with pre-term labor at 27 weeks. They knew there was a good possibility the baby would be born early and they just wanted to make sure we were okay with a preemie. We with out hesitation said YES!! We knew we would just be one in many profiles she was looking at but we took the opportunity that Sun. to fast and pray for her and her sweet baby. We got a phone call the next day that she wanted to meet with us. They also let us know we were the only couple they were meeting with. The Birth Mother said she felt a strong connection with us but wanted to meet us first to see if that connection was real before she selected us. We were so excited to meet her and the birth father and felt that it would only confirm their feelings. It was an amazing moment walking into that room. We all hugged and the spirit filled the room as we began talking and getting to know each other better. She told us how her and the birth father took the files home separate and both with out knowing who the other had chosen chose the same file. They then took the files home to their families not telling them who they had chosen and each of their families chose the same profile.....which was ours. It was just another confirmation to all of us that this was meant to be and that the Lord had his had in what was happening. We cried and shared our lives with each other. Before we knew it it was time to go. I just started to cry as we left and called our parents to tell them how well it went. Our parents cried with us. We knew that this was our baby girl and we knew they knew it as well. The next day we received an e-mail from the Birth Father asking us to call the Birth Mother. I hurried and picked up the phone and called. She wished me a happy mothers day and went on to tell me that they had chosen us. She expressed how she knew from the day she found out that she was pregnant the baby wasn't meant to be hers, and how she has been in so much turmoil with how to place her for adoption. She has three other children who are under 4 and is not in a position to take on another. She said that when she found our profile and for sure when she met us that this was her answerer. She expressed how happy she was and that she finally felt peace with her situation. She then invited us to her appointments and the birth and told me she wanted us to be as involved as we wanted to be. It really is a dream come true for us. We are going to her Dr. apt tomorrow and we will be able to hear her heart beat and see our sweet baby girl for the first time. I have been on cloud nine ever since. It is like breathing new air!!!!! When our IVF failed a piece of my heart was lost. I was so sad and wondered why I had to endure such a heartbreaking trial. The past year has been so hard for me. I love my life and my amazing family, I am so blessed. But I just felt a piece of me was missing. A couple of months ago I finally came to a place where I was able to let that pain go and know I had done all I could and the rest was up to the Lord. I came to accept the whole in my heart and was okay that it would not be filled until our next child came. I knew the Lord would bless us with another child I just didn't know how or when. I started living my life again....I signed up for two bike rides, planned on getting Lagoon passes and having a fun summer with the boys, and was looking forward to all of our family get aways. I had the summer planned out!!! Little did I know this miracle would come along. So this summer will be even better than I thought. The boys are so excited to have a little sister and we are ecstatic to have a daughter. She is the final piece to our puzzle. I can't tell you how amazing it feels to know we are DONE!!!! She is the icing on the already perfect cake! I am so grateful to a loving Heavenly Father who knows what we need to learn and grow and if we but endure will send us amazing blessings. My heart is so full I have a hard time finding words. I just want all of you to know how grateful we are to have such amazing family and friends. Your prayers are what have helped us receive this blessing. And to my sweet husband who has spent countless nights consoling me and never letting me give up hope, I love you!!!! We are going to name her Lia Diane, after my mom. My mom has cried all my tears with me, so it means a lot to me to be able to name my daughter after her. I hope that this can give others in our situation hope. Miracles do happen. I wonder sometimes what I have done to be so blessed. All I know is that Jon and I have done what ever it has taken to get our family here. It has not been easy but it has been worth everything we have sacraficed to have these sweet children in our home. I would do it ALL over again. The Lord loves us and has a plan for us all!!!!!!!

Any way this is a long post and more for me as a memory, but I thought I would share. I will let you know how the Dr. apt goes!!! Never done that before, it should be neat!!!